Dear You

I’ve always wanted to leave who I am behind, just start over but there is mo way for me to do that;

I’ll always remember my past and act the same, and I would also miss everyone I love ;v;

But at the same time I want to be able to forget everything even the ones I love so I can just try again and get things right, cause right now all I can see is what I did wrong in my life;; I still think some days why did I ever came out of my depression only to be now afraid to get online or talk to anyone;;

I guess it’s because I’m so self cautious but I still think I’m just annoying those I talk to and I’m being a drama queen; Though it doesn’t help I’m writing this I guess lol

Money Issues ;o;

My mom has recently bought her house of her dreams, which has made her beyond happy, there’s just one little problem…

We can’t afford anything now. OTL;;

Before we moved right before the housing crisis, so we now ended up having 2 houses since 1 hasn’t been sold in like 4 years and the other we just moved out of. OTL;;

And our new house has been abandon for about 2 years, so there’s a LOT of stuff that needs to be fixed up, for one thing we sorta don’t have plumbing everywhere in the house. OTL

And long story shorten a little, we’re short on money, and I can’t get a job since no where I can get to is hiring, and my bro is being a lazy ass and not even bothering trying to help earn money, so I’m dropping my commission prices to really low, hoping I can earn some so I can help out, even if it’s just a little ;A; ;;

Chibis-

Digital - 3$

Traditional - 1$

Full Body-

Digital - 7$

Traditional - 5$

Half Body-

Digital - 5$

Traditional - 4$

A page full of sketches of whatever you want - 1$

Flash dress up game - 15$

Extra characters - 2$ each

Background - 3$

And anything traditional I can mail it to you if you’d like free. ;o;  So please help, PM or comment or something me please akjslkajslka OTL;;

Selfish

I’ve been unpacking more stuff lately into my new room and I found my box of treasures, they’re my life. There’s a box from kiddy, sketchbooks of hoes, fans from china and Spain, nicknacks from china from Ting, china wear from Asia from my papa, DVDs from the philopeans from my step grandma and other sweet things from friends from around the world. ;u; But as much as I love everything and everyone whose given me a gift, I still feel envy towards them, I’ve never really been outside the US, but all my family has been. I’ve been a good child so I could get permission to go outside the country with one of my closest friend and even though I held up my end of the deal I wasn’t allowed. Then I was promised to just go to Cali but then I was ditched by my dad so he could go to Germany with my brother who won’t get a job or do anything for the family. Now he’s going to be going to Italy soon to live there and I still can’t even get out of this state. I know I should be happy I have a wonderful home and has a better life than most of the world, but I’ve always wanted to experience other cultures and not just be tied down to being an American white girl. I also want to be able to give my friends things from other places like they do for me… But then again I’m a little girl deep down, I doubt my friends have treasures like myself, or whatever lol